hope u read this..:(

honestly...i miss u...so much..!! wana cal u but i knoe its not my right...its selfish...

honestly..i really hope u read this..so u knoe i still miss u..

honestly,its a hard decision...n stupid too..but i hv too..

honestly, i want to turn the tyme back..but its impossible...

honestly, there still hope..but i dunno how to make it true...

remmber..??

honestly, i always look at our pictures..we were sweets..

honestly, its hard to find some1 like u,perfect..!!

 happy...right..?

everything that happen is my fault...

dun blame urself...

i try to fix it back..hope everythng is back to nrmal.. 

 

KELIRU..hurmm...

bile dh wat decision....rse cam salah lak..hurmm...bleyh x ak tarik blik..?? mcm mustahil je...

mal....npe xstop iqa dr wat decision nie...??dulu mal gak kte xnk lepaskn iqa...ye,iqa mmg lemah..iqa mudh je percye dgn kte2....pendirian iqa goyah..sbb tue la,mal kne stop iqa,halang keputsan iqa...skrang nie iqa rse nyesal sbb mintk berpisah...tp iqa tawu iqa xleyh nk ptah blik...iqa juz doa yg kt akn jumpe lg,klau dh jodoh...

iqa tawu slh iqa sbb mmberi hrpan pde apiez...n iqa lyn prasaan die dulu..akhirnyer,iqa pown jtuh atie kat die...mulenyer,iqa igt iqa dh xde rse syg kat mal...tp iqa silap..rpenyer iqa syg due2 skali...ble mal desak iqa wat plihan..ntah cmne iqa plih apiez...maybe sbb die xdesak iqa..mal tawu kn iqa nie rebelious...mal xptot desak iqa...tp pjuk iqa...tlg iqa,igt blik kenangn2 kt..yg mmg byk sgt...4 thun kt bercnte..tp kt kenl dh 5 thun...amik mse sethun tok kt jatuh atie kn....hurmm..

skrang nie,mmg iqa dgn apiez...tp ktowg blum couple..mcm on da way nk couple tp cmne..iqa xnmpk mse depn dgn die dgn cre die...yes,die syg iqa...tp sumtimes cre die...yg lebeyh kn kwn2 n kete...wat iqa trase...maybe die tkot akn dkecewekn lg mcm dulu so die xnk la lebeyh kn iqa...tp xadil la kn....iqa jus hrp die bleyh bg more attention kat iqa..ktowg dh la jauh...hnye phone sebgai penghubung..tp klau msg pown ssh,cmne..??

maybe iqa rse cam terabai sbb dh biase dgn mal..yela,mal sentiase kasi full attention kat iqa...bukn dgn kwn je tp dgn family pown mal lebeyh kn iqa...smpai iqa rse berslh kat parents mal...iqa juz hrap apiez dpt utamakn iqa jugak..jgn la tlalu mengetepikn iqa..hurmmm...bukn nk bndingkn dgn mal..juz nk apiez tawu,iqa nk die ade ble iqa perlukn..iqa nie nmpk je kasar,ganaz..tp iqa mnje sebenarnyeer...dgn owg iqa syg je iqa nmpk mnje kn...

oh,apiez..!!sy dh pilih awk....instead of ikmal....maybe ade sesuatu sy nmpk kat awk...tlg la jgn wat sy kecewe....jgn wat sy nyesal....sy xmintk hrte...sy xmintk awk berkepit dgn sy averyday n evrywhere...sy mintk perhatian...rajin2 la msg sy..bukn 24 hours...sy tawu awk pent kje..tp 1 ari xsampai 10 msg pown..n sumtymes xde msg pown dr awk..ckp xde kedit...hurrmm..tp gi futsal gi jln2 KL ade lak duet kn....dgn kwn awk sggup abiskn duit...dgn sy,sy mintk awk abiskn kedit je...sy rse 1 month rm 30 pown cukup...xkn xmmpu...kt dh la jauh...sy xmintk pown awk dtg cni jumpe sy...sy tawu byk nk pkai duet,duet minyk,tol...hurmm...sy sgt2 trase..klau brg kete awk sggup berlapar..janji dpt kumpul duet n bli...knp xnk invest kat sy..??xberbaloi ke..??rugi ek..??klau cmtue baek kt jgn bercinte...nnt bazir je cinte awk tue....

yes.....sy tawu...awk syg sy....tp awk xpandai nk tunjuk & anggap sy akn nmpk n pham sendri...ssh syg...kt jauh..u hv to show...or i will be blind...jgn la sampai sy rse awk nie xckup syg sy..jgn la sampai sy rse sy bertepuk seblh tgn...bg la kerjesame...ubh la sikap awk yg hnye mahu sy pham awk...dh tue sy...??spe nk pham..??kt kne pham each other....kne tolerate....klau sy je yg tolerate,lme2 sy pown naek fed up....pls...sy harap awk hargai sy lebeyh...show u appreciate me as ur lover not as someone who juz fill da blank...awk..kt bru kenal..byk lg sy xtawu psal awk....so tlg la share wit me about everything...i'm ur lover rght...so u should able to share everythng wif me...coz i'm apart of ur life...

huurmm..mal...still tunggu iqa..??setie nyerr mal...mafkn iqa ek...mmg byk slh n silp iqa...klau kt ade jodoh biar la kt ketemu trus dh nk kawen...xyah couple lme2...nnt lg byk iqa wat salh kat mal..iqa xnk skitkn atie mal....klau xde jdoh ntre kt...iqa hrap ade gurl len yg lebeyh baek,lebeyh cntek n lebeyh menghargai mal dr iqa...thanx syg 4 everything...n sori 4 everything...iqa sll terpkir..klau la mal xlepaskn iqa dulu...klau la mal hlg iqa dulu..hurrmm..xpela..dh berlaku pown...n ptotnyer iqa kne slhkn dri sendri...cume mal tawu kn iqa nie kne ade owg sedarkn iqa...sume pown dh terlmbt...biarla iqa dgn apiez...klau iqa xbhgia...biarla iqa sendri...iqa xcrik mal lg...iqa cbe...iqa xnk la buang n amik mal cmtue...mal pown ade atie n prasaan...tp iqa xpenh buang pown mal dr atie iqa...mal sentiase ade,cume dh jauh..tp xkn hilng...hurmm...

ikmal maafkn iqa...

apiez tunjuk la syg awk kat sy...  

    

ExPeRiEnCeD of a lifetime....(dragon boat..!!)

ok2....ak nk cte psal sukan air yg ak rse sgt bez n different...bace taw..hahaha...

ak nie actually active...suke gyler maen sport...n klau sport mmg ak bolot..klau leyh sume tournmnt ak nk maen....so msok mimet ak try la water sport..since ak dak marine kn..kne la maen air..hehehe...ak pown join la dragon boat...!!!

honestly,mmg laen dr yg laen...trainng pown sgt2 la laen...penat gyler babi nyer trainng..sampai ko ak rse gv up...ko akn rse nk trik dri je...tp ko kne kuatkn dri ko tok keep go on...ur mental n physical kne kuat..jgn gv up..!!

dragon boat nie yg beznyeer...xyah beli kasut sport mhal2..nike air la,adidas la,puma la...sume tue xperlu..rosak je nnt..bazir...kowg pkai slipar jambn je..hahaha...srius taw..sbb nnt kt akn naek boat n ble paddle cnfrm basah kuyup..:)..

pastue mse trainng bju pkai je bju yg same tok 1 week..jemur,pkai,jemur,pkai...mmg la rse cm eeii busuk..tp tue la plg terbaek...ari2 trainng,so cnfrm ari2 bju kowg bsah....kire basuh la tue..hahahaha

yg bez lg psal dragon boat....kt xpggl tournamnt..tp race..!! n race nie sume tahap international..!!ble pegi race mmg bez...ade german,kalimantan,brunei,philipine n byk la...tgk la bpe besar race tue...sll nyer yg gempaq kat penang la...nie dak2 lme dragon boat cte..huhu...

nie amik gamba dgn cambodia,pacific west..:)

 

rower2 lak body nk hot aje..tough2..!!perrrghhh..!! mmg ak cuci mate la pi sane...pkaian dh la fit2..klau xpown dieowg bukak je bju..hui,mmg rezeki..hahahaha...

ktowg race 12-13 mac aritue...hui,mmg pengalamn yg xkn dilpekn...even team ktowg xla hebt mne..mklum la trainng xlme n ramai rower2 bru...tp ktowg tetap bersemngat..bg ktowg kalah itu biase,menng itu rezeki...haha..sengal kn..ktowg race kat KL,tasik metropolitan kat kepong..mse kat sne ak tgk team yg dasyat brunei,navy msia,kalimantn...dieowg trainng berthun2 tue...sbb every tyme race mesty muke rower yg same...

ak msok byk gak race..mklum la...ktowg nie xckup rower...itu la yg maen category mix,itu la yg maen category men...wpown nme category men tp ak msok gak...hahaha...pompn leyh msok tok laki nyer category tp laki xleyh msok gurls nyerr...huhu

yg plg dramatic 1 st race....ktowg ade 

teller(xpasty spelling.:P)..die nie la yg akn jd cam stereng..kasi bot lurus...pastue mse 1st race handle tok teller(cam paddle gak tp lg pnjg) patah...ktowg ngadu la kat owg yg jge race tue,mse ktowg dlm lane..die wat bodo je..die suh kt race gak..xpela...redha...mse start je, "are u ready,attention,go..!!" ktowg pown dayung la..laju nyer...pastue bot berpusing n then

senget ke kanan...bot nk terbalik dh,air dh msok...pastue naseb baek dpt balance kn balik...tp jatuh gak sowg..hahaha....trus batal..die xleyh de yg jatuh,batal la team ktowg tok race tue...hahaha...mmg dramatic gyler laa...

nie la 1st race..b4 ade drama..hhahaha..:P

pastue 2nd race n sterusnyerr...makin kurng la drama...hahaha....perbaiki dri..:)...ktowg dlm 2 ary tue ade lebeyh krung 15 race....1 race kne paddle 500m jauhnyer...sriusly,mmg perlukn stamina yg byk..!!lg2 klau kne race ko berturut2..pergh,bru naek dr bot,trun blik...huhu...

lg 1,klau msok dragon boat kulit ko mmg 'cerah' lah...hahahaha...sunburn gyler nyerr laa..

yg plg seronok nyer...ktowg ade gak menng 1 race...dpt num 3..pingat gangsa je..tp tetap rse seronok..:)...bangge taw..:P

ha..tgk berkilat xmuke ktowg cam medal...haha..surnburn la nie..ak duduk no 2 dr kiri..:)

so,nie la dragon boat...:)...to those yg xtawu leyh la google ek..hehe...n klau ade yg bermnat cbe la join..:)..bg ak nie mmg pengalamn yg ak akn igt sampai bile2...bukn selalu dpt experienced cmnie..:)

nnt bile ade race lg,ak cte lg...klau msh sudi bace la ek... 

btw,congrates to all mimet dolphine team....nex race 32nd International Penang Race...bulan june nie...CHAIYOK2...!!

nah..nie ade lg byk gamba tok santapan kowg..heee..xdpt nk letak sume mne sempt je...

nie tgh pesta jap..:P

 nie mimet dolphine team..:)

 sempat posing b4 naek bot..:P

nie category 12 mix..:)

 nie dgn philipine..:)

kami pink...:P...

kenangan terindah...

memori2 yg ak ku igt hingge ke mati..

TAK DAPAT... :(

selalu nyer bende yg kt nk mesty XDAPAT...!!

jarang la dpt pe yg di impikn...huhu

tp knp ek,ble dcari x dpt,ble x crik la kt dpt....??

sumtymes sampai pasrah thap dewa sbb xdpt..

tp nie la dunia..hmm...

so sbb tue la kekadng ak rse nk dok dlm dunia imagination ak je...

heee...hepy je...n everything nk ade...:)..

but it will not last long...:[..sedeyh tol...

jelesnyer ble things yg kt nk jd hak milik owg len...

rse cam down gyler...

pastue mesty sll berangan klau la ak yg dpt...hmmm

klau xpown mesty tnyer dri sendri..knp bukn ak..??knp mesty die..??

hmmm...:[..:(

knp sush sgt nk dpt bende yg kt nk..??

knp mesty byk halangan..??   

but diz is life...n i hv to accept it....

i live in an unfair world...

tgh sgt2 sedeyh n kecewe...

ak nk sgt 'die'...tp..

he's belong to some else...

uurghh...!!nk je rampas...

tp ak yakin it will only drift

'he' away from me..

hope 1 day things i want will be mine...4 eva..!!

VONO..!!!

saya lapar...!!

tp malas nk kuar bli mkn...

nk bntai maggie tp xbez la..huhu..so bantai la soup vono...!!:)

sodap gak..hehe..:P

yummy..